It's Funny

I haven't quite figured it out but it seems this blog only gets used when things in my life have gone to hell in a hand basket or I'm on the return trip from hell. None of the positive stuff seems to show up here. So I have to ask myself why?

I could use the excuse that for the last year I've been taking a scenic tour of Damien's homeland, and that is partly true. But when I stop and really think there has been some enlightening and happy times in my life this last year as well. I think a truer statement would be that we have a tendency, myself included obviously, to dwell on the negative. It's much more interesting to hear about someones lost love and heartbreak then it is how they whipped the PTA club into shape in record time.

I have made new friends in this last year that I don't think I would of had the opportunity to meet if I hadn't been going through a divorce. At first it was friends dragging/encouraging me to tag along. But in the act of tagging along I met new people and some of those new people become friends, and a few of those have become really good friends.

I learned that I have bootstraps and yes I can pull myself up by them. Some days its a struggle but at the end of the day, it's always worth it.

My sons have shown me that I did the right thing to stand my ground and do what I thought was right by them. They are two bright, level headed young men and although there are days when I wish they were still little and wrapped in my arms, it pure wonderment to watch them grow.

Finally, slowly but surely, I'm discovering me. You might think that sounds strange but for my entire life I was also something to someone, but didn't really know who I was to me. I haven't answered the question yet,there is still much to learn, but once I moved past the fear of the unknown, it's turned out to be a intriguing adventure.

Maybe with this new year, I'll resolve to post, good or bad.